I have always said that the only thing I want in life is to be a mom. Thats all! I'm not asking for the world...or am I? Is that why? Is it to much for me to ask to be a mom? I won't even be greedy...just give me one baby love and live my life for. JUST ONE!
I did everything the "right" way. I graduated highschool. I went to college (took a year off ) and graduated with a bachelors degree. I found an amazing man who can look beyond my imperfections and love me for who I am unconditionally. And yet here are kids out there having baby after baby by a different guy each time and I cant make my husband a daddy!! Why?! I get that I'm broken but damnit give me at least an ounce of a chance to make that dream come true!!
Before I got pregnant before "hope" and I were not on good terms. Now I really think that we will never be friends again. I just can't seem to let hope around. It hurts way more if I do. I wasn't (or haven't been) since we have been nt/np. I'm really at a bad place emotionally.. As much as I thought I was doing better.. I guess I was wrong!
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