"To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes, Tonight I wanna cry"
-Keith Urban
"Tonight I wanna cry"
That pretty much sums up my night tonight. Its been almost 3 weeks since I've seen my husband. I am so thankful that he is working and has a job (and one that allows me to be able to stay home and have daycare littles here) but I miss him. I miss being able to have his arms around me when I need him the most. I miss seeing his face, his smile. I miss hearing him tell me that everything will be okay. I miss having more then a 30 min conversation with him. (we text throughout the evening but its not the same!) I just want him home. I want to have a semi "normal" relationship with my husband. I love him having the ability to be off work during the summer months but these outages SUCK! Its been almost 7 years since we started this routine in his career and even though I know what to expect it doesn't make it any easier.
I am so tired of hearing...
"I don't know how you do it, I could never be away from my husband for that long"
"How do you go that long without talking to him"
"I would never do such and such (around the house). I would leave it for him to come home"
It gets old! I do it because I support his career. I am very proud of how far he has come. I do it because he values my career dream of staying home (with our babies, IF they ever come) If I don't do something that needs to get done around the house IT WONT GET DONE! I am not one that likes to ask for help (unless I really need it) so yes, I bring in the wood for the wood burner (all by myself!). Yes, I walk the trash bin to the street(all by myself!). Yes, I take care of everything that goes with having a home(all by myself!).
I keep my house clean. I have littles running around the house during the day. I go to the gym. I run errands. I do it all. No I don't have a child/children to take care of after the littles leave BUT if I did it wouldnt change how my house is functioned. (other then them being my priority and things could get done after they went to bed)
I am so tired of hearing...
"I don't know how you do it, I could never be away from my husband for that long"
"How do you go that long without talking to him"
"I would never do such and such (around the house). I would leave it for him to come home"
It gets old! I do it because I support his career. I am very proud of how far he has come. I do it because he values my career dream of staying home (with our babies, IF they ever come) If I don't do something that needs to get done around the house IT WONT GET DONE! I am not one that likes to ask for help (unless I really need it) so yes, I bring in the wood for the wood burner (all by myself!). Yes, I walk the trash bin to the street(all by myself!). Yes, I take care of everything that goes with having a home(all by myself!).
I keep my house clean. I have littles running around the house during the day. I go to the gym. I run errands. I do it all. No I don't have a child/children to take care of after the littles leave BUT if I did it wouldnt change how my house is functioned. (other then them being my priority and things could get done after they went to bed)
This is my life and I enjoy it. That doesn't mean I love every minute of it but damn it I LOVE my life and wouldn't change it for the world. I just wish some people would realize how good they have it and what they have in their life instead of wondering how I function in my life. Because if you must know I function pretty damn good.
disclaimer: this blog was just to vent and not about anyone of my fellow bloggers. if you have read this in its entirety...i thank you!
I know how you feel in a sense. I have heard those lines when my husband was during busy season farming. Now when he works second shift. When I worked first and he worked third. It did get old QUICK! We have two arms and legs and have the ability to do what needs to be done. Don't leave it for your hsuband that misses you just as much and would love to just relax with you when he is home. It is part of the Proverbs 31 I posted about, I am sure your husband lookds forward to returning home to you and your guys' home. It is part of being a good wife, and one that is willing to rise to the occasion even if she doesn't really feel like it. Maybe the other women focus on how you do it instead of how they would function if placed in that situation because they know it wouldn't fair well. I understand your vent. Hope it felt good to get it off your chest.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jess!! I <3 you!!
ReplyDeleteI wasnt sure the best place to let you know this...but Lisser from CTP got her bfp close to 3 weeks ago I believe. She got news it was ectopic today. Just wanted to let you know. <3 She might be able to use some kind words from another that understands exactly what she is going through. Love ya girl.
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