Yet another update & Challenge Day 3

So I’ve been slacking lately on updating and keeping up with the daily challenge so Ill do both at this time.  Mike and I have been really busy the past few weeks and weekends.  We went to Niagara Falls to celebrate our 3 year anniversary. This was the first anniversary since we have been married that we were able to celebrate. Usually Mike is working out of state, working OT or heading out of state. It was so nice to get away and not have to worry about reality for awhile.  Ill edit this post with some pics as later today. 

 

As far as the TTC road we are on. Today is CD 52 and still no sign of AF or no BFP. I have an appointment with the new doctor on October 3rd, so I'm hoping that he will figure something out and do alot more then the other dr did. So I guess we shall see! 




Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.


This is an interesting challenge. It is a lot easier to forgive someone else than forgive yourself. If I have to pick something, I would say that something I need to forgive myself for is realizing that the things that happened during those 3 long years of my life where not my fault.  I have to forgive myself for putting the blame on me. I need to forgive myself for how I let myself get treated. I need to realize that not everyone is like that. I deserved more and I am sorry that I endured all 3 years. Forgiveness is such an easy thing when it comes to me forgiving someone else for something but when it comes to me forgiving myself for what happened during those times isn’t easy. I still feel as though it was my fault. If I could take it all back I would.