So last month was my first round of clomid and this cycle AF showed her nasty head about 10 days earlier and she is in full force. (sigh) Anyways, I dont know if its just bc AF is being a super bitch or bc i was on the clomid BUT I'm so tired of crying all the time for the last 3 days over EVERYTHING!
I cried today when they read the verdict for the Casey Anthony trial. I cried for the little girl who still has no justice for her and didnt deserve to die. I cried last night b/c there was a racoon in the live trap we have around the house and Mike had to "get rid of it" b/c it could have came back and hurt the cats or the dog. I cried tonight bc Mike is going back to work (he normally wouldnt have gone back to work til sept) but thankfully he will be home this whole time he is working. (til at least nov/dec). I cry almost nightly b/c we are still trying. We are starting cycle #10. I know there are so many others that have been trying for longer and I give you kudos for being so strong. I'm emotionally drained right now and I'm questioning when its time to throw in the white towel and just come to terms that I may never be able to carry a child.
I'm just tired of crying. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry. It took everything I had tonight to get the dishes loaded into the diswasher. Ok, vent over...I need to get to bed.....
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